What’s happening to me?

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It’s been over a month here in Bangalore, the IT hub of India and I am still not able to connect myself with this city. My family is all busy in this holy month of Ramadan and I am sitting here like a lonely soul. The fact is I am not quite use to loneliness and hence I am finding myself in an absolute home sick kind of situation. Eid is on Wednesday and I am just waiting for some miracle to happen which could land me to my home. Well, in this midst of sadness, I am quite excited about my first salary coming up with some extra benefits (which I don’t want to discuss) but still the joy of being with family is much higher than one’s first salary. I am neither a smoker nor a drinker and this habit of mine has left me quite annoying because I have got not a single company who thinks like me. Quite isolated in terms of ideology! What should I do? Where should I go? I have realized that I have become an extremely boring kind of person who does nothing but just sits and thinks about his future all the time. I am having no burdens on my shoulders but still I feel as if have so much weight on them. Maybe this is the time I need to take some bold steps ahead in my life. Wait a sec! This no way means I am starting to smoke or drink.  I am happy to be away from that part.  My goals, my ambitions off course boost me to stay active but somewhere I feel I am losing the grip. Be it the grip of spirituality or the grip of expressing. I am loosing it all and that’s not a good thing to lose. Is it? I have to do something about it and that too quickly. But what should I do? Only a handful of people know me and understand me but now they are all scattered. I am suffering from terrible mood swings these days.  The gap of happiness is widening and I don’t want my life to get wasted like this. I am not the part of culture I am living in right now. No matter how much you travel, how many cultures you be in, at the end you always want to come home. My journey has just started and home is far away.  Let’s see where my fate takes me.

Murtaza Alamshah

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Brand New Day

 

Brand New DayIsn’t it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet?

― L.M. Montgomery

I am standing in the crowd,

Trying to shout out loud.

My voice is reaching nowhere,

It’s too late, nothing can be repaired.

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I want to look behind and go back in past,

But this crowd is not letting me turn.

I feel I am being harassed,

Is there any way to return?

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Now I realize the value of those days,

They are precious to me and can never be replaced.

I will always remember them,

Those memories cannot be erased.

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This transition is proving pretty heavy,

But I know I will come out of it.

Trying to remain calm and happy,

There is no intention to quit.

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I don’t know where I am heading to,

But I know my loved ones are with me.

If I am the sailor, they are my crew,

Imagining life without them would me very scary.

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So I am sailing in this ocean where nobody knows me,

I believe I will find my way to the right door,

The terrain is now much more hilly,

But I am certain to reach ashore.

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Murtaza Alamshah

 

Path to Success

Path To SuccessStep #1

Understand yourself completely

 Don’t try to be in a world of fantasy. Be true to yourself. If you are a day dreamer then your dreams will remain just a dream. It will never take the shape of reality. I don’t say dreaming is bad. In fact it’s our dreams that give us the vision and the moral boost to do something but over dreaming and making the virtual world your reality is terribly bad.

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Step #2

Know your potential

Everyone can’t run as fast as Bolt and everyone also can’t be Bill Gates but if you realize your potential you can attain similar height of success. For example you know you can’t handle pressure. Now this is something which you can’t change easily. There is nothing impossible to achieve but sometimes adjusting with what we have is far better option than to try making it perfect.  Simply realize all your weakness and strengths.

Step #3

Sense the feeling of satisfaction and determination

After analyzing yourself so deep, if you don’t get the feeling of satisfaction then probably you are not confident on what you have thought about. I advise you to take rest and make a fresh start again. Too much of thinking can really leave you in a confused state hence it’s good to re-evaluate your thoughts and conclusions rather than hurrying up.

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Step #4

Make a concrete long term plan (Generalized)

Once you are done with finding your weaknesses and powers, now it’s time to make a long term plan. This involves real thinking and its here where your potential is tested, so it’s really important to make wise and planned decisions. Involve every weakness and strength in it and make a plan which you believe would be most sound and solid. Never forget to draw alternatives. Life is unpredictable! Define a starting point and the end point of the plan within a calculated period of time.

Step #5

Make a concrete long term plan (Detailed)

Now when you are aware of the overall structure of your plan, it’s time to point out minute details and establish milestones to achieve the end point step by step. This will help you always remain focused on some specific part of your plan. For example if your end point is to be an international singer then one of the milestone could be winning some reputed national contest. So at that time your concentration will be entirely on that national contest which off course is a sub part of your ultimate goal. This approach provides a much easier and much controlled way to reach the goal.

Step #6

Keep the level of determination and confidence in you

This is the final and the most important step. Once you are set with your goal plan you have to be through with it. There will be ups and downs.  You cannot avoid them but what matters is that you never back down and keep moving towards achieving your goal. If you maintain the level of tolerance, patience and determination you will soon taste the success.

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God Bless

Murtaza Alamshah

 

The Invisible Soul

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Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.

– H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

Do you miss your loved ones who are now resting in peace in the arms of God? Well I do miss someone many a times. I was very young when he passed away. I don’t remember any memories associated with him but I really feel that he is somewhere around me and watching over me every day.  I miss him because my mom always tells me that he was the one who loved me the most. It was him with whom I used to enjoy all the time. I feel so low that I don’t remember any of those moments. For people he is dead now, but I have always kept him alive inside my heart. I can feel his presence. You know where? Right within me..! My family members say that I have many similarities with him. It makes me feel happy. Every person has got a place to hide when he feels low; I hide inside my own heart because that’s where I find this man. I talk to him and he tells me what I should do next. Now does that mean my heart is heaven? Well, I don’t think so. May be he visits my heart on a consultancy basis whenever I need him.  I don’t even remember his voice. All I have seen is his pictures. This is something that really makes me sad. I want to hear him but he is dumb for me! He only gives me hints. You know how I connect to him? I just close my eyes and imagine a white room with a large door. I constantly keep looking at it and it opens within few moments and I see him coming. May be that’s the door to heaven but I am not allowed to go there. I just sit at one place. He comes, he smiles and I sense his gesture. I feel so relaxed. I forget everything and my mind starts getting solutions to the problems. I think he injects them with his gesture. Whatever the way is, the fact is my mind really starts working and somehow reaches the solution. If I am sad he makes me visualize all the jolly memories. When I am angry he throws his signature awesomely saint like smile on me and I instantly get lost in that. He can deal with any emotions I display to him.

It’s not that he only comes when I call him. He always monitors me from wherever he is. I asked him many times where he resides but he just keeps smiling. He warns me whenever I am about do anything wrong. I am saying this because I see his face in front of me at such times. He tells me not to push myself into that particular matter. It sounds fictional but for me it’s the real truth of my life. Initially I used to think I have hallucinations but now I realize it’s my deep love and desire for him which drives me towards him. For once I also thought it’s the God who is helping me always. Being a Muslim I am bound to read NAMAAZ 5 times a day without fail. I don’t even read it once so this makes me realize that God is not at all happy with me. It can’t be Him. Then I thought it could be my parents but they are alive so that option is also ruled out. I never realized that there could be someone else too who can love me and help me out. It’s just today that I have realized this! It’s my GRANDFATHER! He is inside me. It’s he who helps me out and saves me. It’s not the long luck line on my palm but his love! He has taught me important lessons of life.  I might have never heard his voice, I may not remember any moment spent with him but I know one thing that he has a temporary home within my heart.

Today I miss my Grandpa very much and he is not with me. It’s the rule of nature. I can’t break it but what matters here is that I never left him from me. He is all attached to me. Why am I sharing with you all this? I want you people to understand a few things.

1. Doctors declare a person dead when they their patient has stop breathing. People declare someone dead when they hear or go the funeral of that person but we (as individual) can always keep alive inside us. They are dead for us only when we forget them and kick them out of our heart.

2. Our heart and mind are two very confused and complicated organs.  Everything is inside us but we have to find them inside us. If people say you are dumb that doesn’t mean you are actually dumb. It means you are still unable to find the things hidden inside you. My Grandpa never gave me ideas he just showed me the path where to find them inside me. It is collaborative effort of mind and heart which leads to perfect solution.

God Bless

Murtaza Alamshah

Heart v/s Brain

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The brain does the thinking, but the heart knows more about love than the mind can ever comprehend

-Anonymous

Heart (cheerfully):  Hey BIG B! How are you? It’s been quite a time we haven’t spoken with each other.

Brain (feeling little uncomfortable): Yeah dude! I am very busy these days with my stuff. Sorry about that.

Heart: Oh I see! Yeah, I have been hearing a lot about your activities. As your good friend, let me suggest you something. You aren’t taking right decisions buddy. You need my help.

Brain (getting annoyed): Dude, I am much smarter as well as far more efficient than you and this is clearly evident from the fact that our boss has chosen me as his chief advisor and decision maker keeping you aside.

Heart (smiling): Yes, I know that very well. I do not doubt your abilities to take decisions my friend. You are the smartest of all. Only a fool would question that but try to understand that my advice in decision making is of equal importance because I equally control the emotions just as you do. It is extremely necessary for both of us to work together and come to a mutual win-win situation.

Brain: Oh come on! You need a break! Your decisions are always weak and everyone knows that! Your decisions have resulted in pain and sorrow most of the times.

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Heart: Yes, that’s true but I have made several other decisions also which has treasured humans with all the happiness he has today. Haven’t I?

Brian (losing patience now): Yes, so what? I don’t care about that! Today’s world needs just me. Your services are no longer required.  What you cherish is of no more importance now. You speak the language of love and only love which is losing its value day by day. I provide humans with everything he needs to be the king of the world today.

Heart (sadly): I agree with you that people are losing my importance and this is most unfortunate. They will soon realize my importance but by that time it would be too late.

Brain (laughing loudly): They will never call you because you are a looser and they know that. They need a real champion which is me.

Heart: It’s your moment right now but soon it will be mine. I have no doubt about this. The only thing I am afraid of is the loss humans would have faced by the time they realize my importance.

Brain (showing his entire ego): Go away before I destroy you!

Heart moves on silently without uttering another word.

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Realizing this, the brain boasts his supremacy over the heart. Now I want each and every one of you to close your eyes and talk to your heart and brain. Judge yourself to whom do you give more importance. I personally believe that without heart it’s all useless so I would never exclude it from any decision making process. What do you think?

 Murtaza Alamshah

Lessons of my life

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Learn to respect the one who loves you rather than giving respect to the one you love.

Dream high but always be aware of your limitations.

Right thinking at the right time will help you reach your goal but right thinking at the wrong time brings only disaster.

Life is not a movie. Nothing is fictional here.

Achieving heights of success is useless if you don’t have your loved ones around you.

Be sincere towards your responsibility. Life takes its toll if you run from it.

Earn money to live a better life and not live life just to earn money.

Every person has one special thing which if he has can get through his life. For me it’s happiness.

Live for your loved ones and not just for your self.

Respect all the emotions. Only then you will realize the importance of each.

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Murtaza Alamshah